Still having a life仍活著

 I am still alive. Hey!

Experience a new life in a different country, having a job and living in a house feels great. But recently, I need to quit the job. The job nature is not that bad but only one part which always an obstacle to me. I am the admin staff for two teams - 1 & 2. At the first half year, it was a honey moon as two experience colleagues (A & B)worked well and I could perform the part time role completely. There was a new full time staff (C) reported duty just one week after me. She was really good expressing herself by chatting around. But my works impressed by the team because I picked up very fast. I tried to open myself and being friendly to team 1 as they were really a nice team. But C started to challenge me by speaking very fast, even teasing me with slang like slow learners. That made me feeling unhappy but as the other colleagues were nice. That I told myself to ignore C.  But J kept asking me the things about the job since she was ban 2 and I was ban 3. She started to challenge me and compared every things. She asked for my handout which I made it by myself. She never remember the details and always asked the same question in a few days. 

Then A was promoted and left our team and replaced by B.  Then I was required to cover Team 2 until the new full time colleague report duty. Nightmares came. They went to B for any issue ignoring me as a deputy. Although I had experience in minutes taking in Hong Kong, they were different in practice no matter in language, medical terms and their discussion and conclusion. Firstly, they did not have the agenda and they would not send you the detail before the meeting although they had got them on hand. While they were in the discussion, they did not mention the final conclusion as people kept talking their point of view. No one gave a conclusion. With the lack of medical background and different ascents of the attendees, I failed to perform and some expressed the dissatisfied words which feeling humiliated. At that time, C keep challenging and she always comforted me when I covered the reception. My manager told me that I don't need to cover the reception so often unless special requests.

The new permanent staff (D) reported duty and I was happy and think that it would back to the past. It really worked for a few weeks. Then C made friends with D and they chatted all the time. I concentrated on my work and I told myself I did not need friends. One incident that trigger me which C would show D to downstairs for first class mail. But on the day, C was the reception and she was not supposed to go around and no one stationed at the reception. So I needed to pick up calls and answering the door. When I talked to B the next day, B told me she already shown D the week before. It meant that C was using this as excuse and social around with D. 

The situation became more worse that C chatted with everyone at the reception, or sitting on the other desks social around. They even talked at the reception area for over 30 mins. So call bounced to the back office and I had to pick up and answer even I was working on the letters.  C asked the people to go to me for scanning documents as she claimed that her scanner was out of order. Of course, it worked properly the day before. I finally realised the reason when I saw her pressing the button in a crazy way. One case that she did over which she scratched my hair and saying like scratching her dog. This was unacceptable and I raised to my Manager. But the manager was not going to solve this but telling me that I can raise a complaint. At that time, I thought if I raised the complaint, C might be marked with demerit that would affect her career. I thought she may though it was a joke but not means to hurt me. So I did not raise the complaint. After a week, C seemed to touch my hair again, I stopped her and told her I was not feeling comfortable. So she stopped. 

I worked only Monday and Friday in the office. But I was needed to pick up the bounced phone call and doing scanning task which she claimed that machines broke down. She even bought me the mails.  So I started to see what she was doing when the phone rang. She was browsing the webs or playing the mobile. I approached to my manager again for the unfairness. He asked me whether I wanted to raise a complaint ? Or he can set up a meeting for me and C.  This was in fact a failure of the administration in the team. He should started an observation and investigated.  

There were many examples about her and it proved that everything was out of controlled. Although noone can interfere about the application of leave but C would take all leave on Monday and Friday only. She can skip the reception day which she enjoyed the chatting at the back office. It was because there was another receptionist report duty on Tues/Wed/ Thurs. 

What was the situation recently? C became more freely leaving the reception. I surrendered and submit my resignation. 

 It is a really long story but I feel disappointed with this. 

 Why I telling the story here? Because I want to tell, my life is different now. What I need is a better quality of life after the cancer. I do not want to live like before.