Terrible cough 一次超長既咳

 I hope that the cough would not come to me every year. I hate the cough visited me annually which made me very sick. Coughing made my work and my life very uncomfortable. This time, I started my cough since beginning in July after my trip to Japan. Then yellow and green phlegm that made me feeling bad, pain and exhausted. Antibiotics and inhalers were used. Situation did improve as phlegm became transparent. But it still lasted for over 6 weeks. I am worried that as I was getting old, my body may not be able to recover so fast. Last year I have the cough for 2 months. And now nearly 2 months again. 

一年一度既咳又黎探我, 上年我咳咗2個月, 今年又係咁。上年就扯蝦咁, 呼吸都咳. 今年就有痰, 食咗抗生素同用埋放鬆氣管藥, 都要捱2個月. 雖然而家好D. 真擔心年紀再大, 身體又會差咗, 以後唔知幾耐先會好😓 

Still having a life仍活著

 I am still alive. Hey!

Experience a new life in a different country, having a job and living in a house feels great. But recently, I need to quit the job. The job nature is not that bad but only one part which always an obstacle to me. I am the admin staff for two teams - 1 & 2. At the first half year, it was a honey moon as two experience colleagues (A & B)worked well and I could perform the part time role completely. There was a new full time staff (C) reported duty just one week after me. She was really good expressing herself by chatting around. But my works impressed by the team because I picked up very fast. I tried to open myself and being friendly to team 1 as they were really a nice team. But C started to challenge me by speaking very fast, even teasing me with slang like slow learners. That made me feeling unhappy but as the other colleagues were nice. That I told myself to ignore C.  But J kept asking me the things about the job since she was ban 2 and I was ban 3. She started to challenge me and compared every things. She asked for my handout which I made it by myself. She never remember the details and always asked the same question in a few days. 

Then A was promoted and left our team and replaced by B.  Then I was required to cover Team 2 until the new full time colleague report duty. Nightmares came. They went to B for any issue ignoring me as a deputy. Although I had experience in minutes taking in Hong Kong, they were different in practice no matter in language, medical terms and their discussion and conclusion. Firstly, they did not have the agenda and they would not send you the detail before the meeting although they had got them on hand. While they were in the discussion, they did not mention the final conclusion as people kept talking their point of view. No one gave a conclusion. With the lack of medical background and different ascents of the attendees, I failed to perform and some expressed the dissatisfied words which feeling humiliated. At that time, C keep challenging and she always comforted me when I covered the reception. My manager told me that I don't need to cover the reception so often unless special requests.

The new permanent staff (D) reported duty and I was happy and think that it would back to the past. It really worked for a few weeks. Then C made friends with D and they chatted all the time. I concentrated on my work and I told myself I did not need friends. One incident that trigger me which C would show D to downstairs for first class mail. But on the day, C was the reception and she was not supposed to go around and no one stationed at the reception. So I needed to pick up calls and answering the door. When I talked to B the next day, B told me she already shown D the week before. It meant that C was using this as excuse and social around with D. 

The situation became more worse that C chatted with everyone at the reception, or sitting on the other desks social around. They even talked at the reception area for over 30 mins. So call bounced to the back office and I had to pick up and answer even I was working on the letters.  C asked the people to go to me for scanning documents as she claimed that her scanner was out of order. Of course, it worked properly the day before. I finally realised the reason when I saw her pressing the button in a crazy way. One case that she did over which she scratched my hair and saying like scratching her dog. This was unacceptable and I raised to my Manager. But the manager was not going to solve this but telling me that I can raise a complaint. At that time, I thought if I raised the complaint, C might be marked with demerit that would affect her career. I thought she may though it was a joke but not means to hurt me. So I did not raise the complaint. After a week, C seemed to touch my hair again, I stopped her and told her I was not feeling comfortable. So she stopped. 

I worked only Monday and Friday in the office. But I was needed to pick up the bounced phone call and doing scanning task which she claimed that machines broke down. She even bought me the mails.  So I started to see what she was doing when the phone rang. She was browsing the webs or playing the mobile. I approached to my manager again for the unfairness. He asked me whether I wanted to raise a complaint ? Or he can set up a meeting for me and C.  This was in fact a failure of the administration in the team. He should started an observation and investigated.  

There were many examples about her and it proved that everything was out of controlled. Although noone can interfere about the application of leave but C would take all leave on Monday and Friday only. She can skip the reception day which she enjoyed the chatting at the back office. It was because there was another receptionist report duty on Tues/Wed/ Thurs. 

What was the situation recently? C became more freely leaving the reception. I surrendered and submit my resignation. 

 It is a really long story but I feel disappointed with this. 

 Why I telling the story here? Because I want to tell, my life is different now. What I need is a better quality of life after the cancer. I do not want to live like before. 

Busy November

 This month would be a very special month. Busy in Medical appointments and treatments. 

I will have an operation in Gynaecology. It would be a one-day treatment and do not need to stay overnight. The doctor said it is not fatal but urgent. It is the first time that the operation is beyond my acknowledgement. I will be informed the details and the whole process on the day of my operation. And it is also the first operation in UK. 🤞

 On the other hand, there are 2 part time which I applied 6 months ago. It is strange that they sent me the job detail before knowing my operation. The timeline is so well planned and all in the respective order.  

 All the  above make my November full of challenges and busy.

今個十一月, 一個超繁忙既十一月. 好多覆診, 仲加一個婦科手術. 

今之係割纖維瘤, 醫生話,not fatal but urgent. 第一之係英國做手術, 仲係唔知道好多細節, 要係入院個日先知. 

另外有兩份半年前申請, 係未知要做手術前又聯絡我, 點會唸到要做手術呀.整個編排好似好有整理咁.

 總之就整到呢個月密密麻麻咁. 

 

 

A few years later.......... 幾年後...........

 A few years later, I am still alive. Thank God mercy to me. 

Staying here for 3 years and had a part time job.😃 I would say the life here is only peace on mind. Here, people are mostly very nice but there are still some that not easy to be 'managed'.

My body had no specific uncomfortable but recently I will have a small surgery Gynaecology. Thank God that it is not fatal but it is urgent as described by the doctor.  I wish everything would in God's hand. 

The health system maybe a failure to the people here. But honestly, when compare to the place I came, it is not that bad. We don't need to wait for 3 hours for just 15 minutes in the consultation room. And some doctors even talked to you without eye contact. It is not a communication with you medical expert but like you are arrived in the immigration passport control. 

Here, they will explain about your situation, talk to you and give you time to ask them questions. And they don't need to pushy. Relax and work, life balanced. 👌

又過咗幾年, 感恩仍活著. 有一份唔錯既兼職, 大部份人都唔錯, 硬係有D比較難處理. 😩

身體方面還好, 不過最近需要做一個婦科小手術, 希望一切順利. 

呢度醫療對於本地人會覺得失望, 但相對黎講, 比我以前的還好. 至少唔會等3個鐘見3分鐘, 有D醫生仲零交流, 好似過海關咁. 

呢度會同你交流, 比時間你問問題, 解釋你既情況, 唔會趕你走咁. 

呢度要放鬆, 工作生活要取得平衡.

Quality of Life 生活質素

17/12/2015 is a very important date for me as it is the first day to know I had Lymphoma.  Just two more months later, I would be 7th Anniversary.  It would be happy to know that I am bathed in love of Jesus and my family and friends of these years. 

My situation now is good. With a different living environment, lifestyle, weather and people, I find the life could be in better quality. It is not merely the food, but the way of living. I am lucky at this moment that I do not need to worry about living. 

However, while knowing the life of the younger generation, it is not that easy. They strike for survival is not that easy. The job market here is not the same as the one in Hong Kong where the people like me need the time to adapt and follow. Maybe the pace of Hong Kong is far too fast and efficient which make a big difference to us. But because of the 'slow' action which allows us to have a relax pace and to built a better quality of life. 

2015年１２月１７日， 一個重要的日子， 因為當天跟淋巴癌相遇的日子。 仲有兩個月， 就識咗７年。 好感恩既係我有天父、家人及朋友既關愛。

我現在身體情況還好， 係新環境仍適應中， 唔同既步伐、人物、天氣同生活習慣都比我知道原來生活可以係活得更有質素。

香港急急腳、快快手， 對比呢度就見得好慢， 但原來呢人個慢， 係可以令生活更加高質同埋更有意思。

Status update 現況更新

I am still good today. I tried a new recipe since August 30, 2022 which I do not eat any carbohydrate products. But I eat a lot of vegetables. In the past may I be I eat 40% meat, 25% carbohydrate products and 25% vegetables. Now, it would be 40-50% meat, 50%-60% vegetables. Just four days, I  have 2.2 kg less. So happy. 

 更新下先。

３０／８開始戒飯，所有碳水化合物都唔食。 每５日休息２日， 今天上磅， 少咗２ＫＧ。 超開心。

A careless fall 做咗大冬瓜

沖涼唔記得拎毛巾好平常, 但拎完係廁所"冼"咗落地下, 好彩老公聽到"呯"一聲, 就去廁所搵我, 扶我起身。個一刻只感到右邊大腿好痛, 尾龍骨有忍忍痛。

第二日起身,都要拐拐下, 上落樓梯都要扶手。

第三日就好多了, 今日都行得好好, 不過知道要多休息,以免再過勞。

 Forget to bring the towel to shower is a common incident. But for me, I am really careless that I have a big fell on the ground. It is lucky that my husband rushed to toilet after hearing a big noise. My husband helped me to stand up. I feel pain of my right thigh and a bit uncomfortable at my back.

On the second day, I need to use the stair handrail for going up and down the stairs. 

On the third day, it is really good. But I will keep to remind myself not walking too much. 

友情互勉 mutual support

 係呢段期間, 都有不少朋友問有關癌症治療或者期間既情況, 他們有些是自己有事,有些是他們家人, 好慶幸同感恩, 他們各位都是癌症勝利者. 

 因為我由開始至今, 都沒有輕咗或者瘦咗 (老實, 有少少失望, 因由細到大都從未瘦過) 我有問過醫生, 佢地話我夠陽光, 夠正面, 同肯食野, 不過我係聽馬醫生話要食好瞓好. 

其實我有事那些年月, 都是朋友、家人、學生既慰問同關心, 尤其有些失落日子, 報告差, 效果唔理想,等待醫院回覆, 前路茫茫時,那些有野講唔出, 又要唔想家人再擔心,一個窩心問候, 一張咭或者一個訊息都會為你差電

你身邊如果有朋友正面對癌症, 請久唔久發一個訊息鼓勵下,支持下.

#馬承恩醫生話要食好瞓好

#癌症勝利者

I have received calls from friend asking about cancer and the treatment. They may need help for themselves or their relative & friends. I am willing to offer help as I think this is my task for the second life from God.  And blessed they are all still good and healthy. ✌

 I am still healthy and still "Fat" after the cancer and it would be relatively strange as most cancer survivors are slimmer after. I asked my doctor about this and he said it is because my positive altitude and I am willing to eat. 😋

So during the time of suffering, there are so many friends sending me books and articles about how to eat. I did read it but I do think that if the books really help all the people from cancer.  I prefer Dr. Ma's comment. Eat what you want and what you need. Two main duties for cancer patient are : enough sleep and eat well. This principal made me strong and healthy until today. 

 Psychologically speaking, my family, friends, colleagues, ex-students were doing excellent jobs while I was suffering.  Sometimes, while getting sad reports, waiting hospital replies, unsatisfactory results really stressed me up. But their messages, cards or small gifts will recharge me spiritually. 

So, if you have any friends who are suffering now, please do send them a message or even an emoji. That means much to them, I can tell. 

#Dr.LawrenceMAsaysSleepandEatWell

#cancersurvuivors

活到老學到老, 今日先識得覆留言 , 萬分抱歉 I am so sorry that I just learn how to reply comments.

 I just find out how to reply comment. I am so sorry that I reply the comments which post a few years ago. I hope that those people are still going well today. 

Thank you all who really read my blogger and hope that my blog would really give them a minute of positive push. 

I will keep tight on this blog and I will keep record my situation and hope that while you read my post and leave me message. We may not see each other but we can keep connect over here and support each other. 

今日先識覆回應,十分抱歉, 學極都唔識. 希望仲有人會睇我個BLOG, 睇完有一分鐘正能量, 大家未必有機會見到, 但有緣係呢度交流下都好呀.

事隔多年, 感恩天父, 我仍活著 Thanks God still let me still living today.

 六年半了,好開心我今天仍活著. 回想當時既憂慮、治療、痛苦、喜與樂，都好慶幸自己已渡過了。

今天, 仍帶著糖尿、脂肪肝、同剩餘的癌細胞，每天晚上感謝天父比我安然渡過, 每天早上都是醒來。

不知道仲有冇機會再遇見幫過我既醫療人員、朋友、學生、同事, 遇到的病友, 但願大家都能身體健康, 開開心心過活。

 

 Counting the days since my Lymphoma, it is already 6 and a half year.  When I saw the photos, records and the reports, I remember all the scenes, the treatment, the suffering, happiness and sadness. Thanks God's mercy and I am still alive now. 

 Today, I am still living with my friends ~ diabetes, fatty liver, the rest of cancer cells.  I will thank God for giving me a good day every night and wake up healthy every day. 

I don't know whether I can meet those medical staff who helped me, friends, ex-students, colleagues, my cancer friends again. But I hope everyone is healthy and happy ever forever.  

#cancer survivor

Long time no see ~ A new place to suvive 好久不見，又一個新地方轉戰

 It is really a long time did not write on this blog. I am still doing fine. But it is really a great change. I have left Hong Kong and stay in a place with better life. 

Although I may not taste the good food in Hong Kong, I taste the real life and also a life in relax and no worry.  It may be a really busy after the quarantine period and rush everywhere to find a place to stay. Finally get one, even the landlord is not a really nice lady. This is really a negative practice as people will take use of the risk of life to earn their money. Every Hongkongers fleeing for their lives and try to find a better place. The people will take use of this and earn money. They raised the price or the rent. They understand our difficulties and try to get use of it. So we have no choice to do what they asked even the term is a bit harsh. 

Hopefully when we were really settled, we can live what we want.  

Life under COVID-19 肺炎下的日子

Moving forward to my fifth year anniversary suffering Lymphoma (Dec 17, 2015), still under a fear of it. Every time when feeling breathing not easy, I will worry about my cancer friend will invade me again. Especially during the COVID-19, as the symptom is coughing, it would be easily confused. 

I keep my hygiene always at the highest level and try to escape from any suspicious germs breeders. When you see some people coughing but with their masks not in the right position, I will leave the location ASAP. I strongly believe that if all HK people bear their own basic responsibilities, we can win this game. 

In fact, I recently find my breathing is shallow. But I am not sure whether it is because of the weather or the wearing mask for long time. Or because sometimes, I will worry about the future of my family. I pray to my Lord to give me health and I try to relax myself by not thinking too much. Sometimes while encounter about some family issue or having arguments with them, I have a really bad feeling. I understand I should keep health and happy psychological situation, but it is not easy to keep all the time.  I will try to think less, talk less to prevent disagreement. Hope that a clear future will be seen soon. 

2020年12月17日便是癌症5周年了，最近肺炎的日子，更令我害怕返發。每當發覺呼吸不暢順，就會担心癌細胞又再黎探我。

我的投疫程度是最高，只要有疑似「病毒人」咳嗽，而佢地既口罩又戴唔好，就會盡快離場。我相信只要香港人能做好自己本分，我們一定能戰勝。

事實上，最近發覺經常呼吸都比較淺，我不知道是因為天氣還是太長期戴口罩。我只能向天父祈求賜我健康。我明白待要保持心境愉快、無壓力，但因前境未明及與家人的矛盾，許多時都令心境下浸，我只有盡量少發聲、少想去避免發生磨擦。希望能快點前境明朗。

#COVID19  #肺炎

My 5th year

 This is my fifth year. And we have a great plan and thinking to move to somewhere out from Hong Kong. I need a place for better living and with better quality of food. I do think food would be my essential things that I need to put more attention on. Besides food, psychological food is also important. So I need to find a place with slow pace and less pressure in life. 

Unfortunately, sometimes it may not go according to your plan. But I do believe that it is under His plan. 

Finally! A success report! 終於有個好報告啦

Finally, finally, finally......I got a positive report. I receive the report and the CD before the medical appointment. My husband apps me and tell me that it show a good report. The size is smaller and no new area is found. However, as we are not yet confirmed by the medical professional, there still possibility to change. 

Just by chance, I went to Causeway Bay. I decided to visit my wonderful doctor, Dr. Ma and seek for his opinion. He told me that it is really a good report and he was happy to see my success. At that time, I am really happy. A big stone is unloaded finally.

And after the medical appointment, the doctor told me the same thing. I told my favourite doctors Dr. Wong and Dr. Carmen. They are really my heros.

Besides, Dr. Ma, Dr. Wong, Dr. Carmen, my Chinese doctor, Dr. Choi, he is also a good doctor who always encourage me.  Of course, there are many nurses who are nice to me. I love them so much.

Four years of patience, worries, uncertainty....I lastly claim myself a Cancer Survivor.

終於等到啦, 4年黎一直想有既報告，我未覆診已收到報告, 老公收到即what app我, 但因為未有醫生睇過, 都半信半疑。

剛巧有日行過銅鑼灣, 就上去找我最可愛的馬醫生，他都同意是好的報告，也替我開心。聽到由心裏面笑出黎。

最後真的覆診了,再多次作實了。飛起了......仲即刻同我兩位英雄醫生, Dr. Wong 同Dr. Carmen講。

除了多謝以上的醫生, 都要多謝我的蔡醫,他一直以來都鼓勵我，同埋一直支持我的護士，我愛你地呀。

四年內的耐性、担心、時真時假終於可以完一下, 我而家可以大聲話比人知我戰勝咗癌症，希望可以與老公白頭到老。

 

A new page for my life.... 我的新一頁

Today, February 11, 2019, three years after my cancer. A similar report after the PETSCAN on November 16, 2018. New areas were found at right abdoment and pharynx. Tissues are collected and find nothing. It would be really frustuated and painful for keeping checking, tissue collecting .... seems never end. But it is great that I have strong believe in God and I am sure He will have a good plan on me. So I do not feeling worry nor sad about the result.

Life is amazing under God Grace. And I am feeling great by having regular check at my Chinese Doctor, Dr. Choi. He is really a nice and kind hearted doctor. My appearance tells my health and no one think that I suffered cancer 3 years ago. But Dr. Choi reminds me that I need to keep a tight look of my eating habit as it would affect my health directly. And honestly, I do not following 100% on my rules.

I have the back pain recently and with a big belly. Hope that exercise can make it smaller and my back will be better.

Looking forward for a brighter future. And I will start modify this blog and giving more information about my Lymphoma. I hope that it would be helpful if you or your friend is suffering with this. I felt misery when I have Lymphoma and tried to search over the web. But there is not many information find in Hong Kong. As there are many kinds of Lymphoma and mine is incommon.

Remember, the best medicine is to keep positive. The altitude and manner would be the only way to make you feel better. Please email to me if you want to know more about it.

My new report 我的新報告 20170904

I received my report today before my medical check up tomorrow at Prince Wales Hospital. I am deeply down this afternoon as the report is neither good nor bad.

According to my English standard and the web dictionary, I try to understand the report. My previous area seems successful but another new area, not stated as new cancer, seems to need alert.

Oh...shit...when will it stop and back to normal?

電療後血液科覆診 The medical appointment after the radiation treatment

今天覆診:
1. 等了足足3個半鐘, 醫生見我精神唔錯, 都冇咩CARE我講野, 整個會見約30分鐘, 他有29分鐘都是望住個MON, 不停打電腦, 最後, 明年1月再見, 咁問佢幾時再照PETSCAN,因為只有PETSCAN先確定我是否痊癒,佢話唔會咁密, 等1月覆診時先BOOK啦, 咁如有人問我好返未, 我只有答1月先知....
2. 我左手腕於半個月前, 即開始電療前有粒豆既野係皮下面, 而家個粒野已令我左手掌不能活動自如, 醫生寫了轉介紙比我睇骨科同物理治療...呢D就係傳統政府醫生, 病唔死都比佢激死
3.我醫生建議我打流感針, 寫紙比我去打, 但姑娘話我唔合付資格,雖然醫生話我係抵抗力低, 我唔合資格原因仲好笑, 唔夠65歲同唔係拎綜援....OMG(都唔知幾多人拎綜援, 國內大把錢.....)

 What's on today?

1. After waiting for 3 and half hour, the doctor see me at last. For the 30 minutes conversation, he does not look at me at all. He spends 29 mins on the monitor and the keyboard. Maybe I am no longer sick and he merely spend any concern over me. When I ask him when would be the next petscan, he would prefer to talk on the next appointment on January 2017.

2. Regarding my left wrist, I am feeling bad and worse. I can hold thing or twist at certain angle. However, after he takes a really fast look at my x-ray,  he refer me to the physio therapy and orthopedics department. I feel a bit disappointed with his altitude.

3. And another good doctor suggest me to take the Seasonal Influenza Vaccination. And she fills up the form. However, the nurse there rejects me as I am not a over 65 elderly nor a Comprehensive Social Security Assistance (CSSA) Scheme Applicant. (I believe that some of the applicants are rich people in China.)

The Hong Kong Government is no longer serving the real Hong Kong people. 

第9次電療 The 9th treatment

上星期五因為電療機壞了,所以要延多1 天, 23/11才完成, 剛是第二年的第一天, 希望亦是治療最後一天吧。

第六次開始, 除了攰之外, 還有頂心作悶的感覺。這一次比一次明顯, 今天做完電療, 已即有這種感覺。

The machine broke down last Friday and my last treatment day postponed one more day, 23/11. This day would be the 1st day of my second year of Lymphoma. And I hope that it would be last treatment day.

And since the 6th treatment, besides feeling fatigue, I feel discomfort in my stomach. This feeling become serious day by day. I can feel it today right after the treatment.

😣

第4次電療 The 4th treatment

多謝天父既保守, 第4次電療都未見有大唔舒服。只係頂胃感覺稍為明顯,攰同有輕微背痛。

上星期五因左手腕有粒白粒, 好似粒藥丸咁, 按有痛, 同郁手指公時有唔舒服, 醫生寫紙比我照x光, 希望冇事啦。

繼續努力。

Thank you very much for my Lord taking care of me during the radiation therapy. I feel great although I have received the 4th treatment. Besides tired, only a bit pain in stomach & back. 

Last Friday, a small pea sized was find on my left wrist. I feel pain only I pressed on it. And it seems affecting while I am swinging my thumb. Dr. Cheung refers me to take a x-ray and hope that it would be nothing serious.

Keep going.

第一次電療

好緊張, 到我啦, 入去先係入口坐等叫先入去更衣室除衫, 手震, 望到出面坐係梳化既老公幫我影相, 雖然笑緊,眼角淚水微微流下。

入到去, 緊張到個頭"kwok"一聲撞落個模度, 過程好快, 聽到dee dee聲..仲聽到"好心分手","又不是80年代"隻歌, 3劍俠咁後生, 都會聽我年代既歌!!

十幾分鐘, 佢地話做完,聽日見。

做完個刻冇大感覺, 約半個鐘後開始有少少頂胃,去咗食個熱湯飯, 就冇咗呢個感覺。食完後, 突然覺我好攰, 要即刻返屋企, 瞓咗4個鐘。真係攰到莫名其妙。